ehemm ehemmm

Bismillahirahmanirahim.

In her birthday i had purposed she. And she accepted me with word "yes. I do"
Omg! I'm still remember that word, that word still fresh in my mind. And i don't know why what make me happy that day. Maybe she accept me as i am. Probably. I'm very thankful to God for His given to know that woman. I'm really appreciate.

And tonight, maybe around 9 o'clock she give me one-long messenger that make me scary to hear one day and the word come out today. I'm feel sad. Really sad. I thought she will be my last and guess what? She talked to me, its to fast and i can't accept it. I'm really happy when friend with you. Omg! Did i look shock myelf? I can't imagine ya Allah. I really love her now and please i don't want to lose her. But why she make this decision? Please. Please. Come back to me. Is that i'm too young for any realtionship with you? Is that i'm not too matured enough? I have many and plenty of question want to ask with you and i don't have any strength anymore. Why?! Only a few reason why i don't have any strength, firstly, maybe i can't accept that you said broke up with me. Secondly, i'm....... *** let me myself what is reason it is.

Sayang if one day you managed find my blog i hope you will be read this. Its from my heart. Really meant it. Omg! My tears will be come out. Haha. Sayang, you managed it. Your second girl did it after my ex. Nurul hidayah her name you know that. I take whole this word form one song, really meaningful.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
Where every single promise I'll keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they're done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they're done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I'll keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

Its enough from me. And InshaAllah will be continue.